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Soulmate 21-5-2007

Antapani, @MyRoom, 21-5-2007, 10:43pm
Its already late.. Yeah, i think its already late now. To expressed things inside. Well, who knows, ada ilham yang muncul. Gwa ga tau apa yg bikin gwa jadi gineh. Sometimes weird inside, but kadang gokil tuw muncul disaat pencarian something. To seek out something inside. Hope God help me now.

Some flashy memories comes out from its hidden place, beneath my scorched heart. To know me much more better. My Fantasy girl smile at me, .. or.. more like to grin?! Coz, she knew that i loosen her with her marriage. It does though to let her coz, i’d have to.

Re-Opening my Journals with .. thousands of memories. Too many feelings inside. Do I have to cry? Such a disrespectful. Knights did that to reconciliate the feelings of themself. But they did that to their God. Admit their sins and faults.

Again my_Fantasy comes into my room. To salvage me from my suffer. She gave me her hand, to freed me from suffer. Dah, dunno why i still remember that! Padahal gwa sedang mencoba buat kontemplasi, mencari sesuatu di serakan sampah-sampah pikiranku yang nyeleneh. Well, bukankah Thomas Alfa Edison juga gitu?! Dianggap gila, sinting, nonsense, bahkan (konon) katanya sampe mu dibakar hidup-hidup karena dianggap penyihir gila yang sedang menyebarluasin ilmu barunya di bidang witchcraft.

Sbenernya, gwa mubikin somethin’ different than before. Jadi rekans engga hanya nemuin sisi knowledge-nya gwa. Tapi sisi gokil and sisi ‘darkside’-nya gwa! nieh yang menurut gwa sebut sbagai sebuah kontemplasi buat sang Terkasih.. Fantasy.

Kalo rekans gwa yg dulu sempet tau Journal, pasti bakalan bisa nge-Guess, who’s she, the_Fantasy? .. Yeah, that’s why i called her The_Fantasy, coz, she’d already be within my heart for many years. Weks! 1993 – 2007 = 24 years .. she still inside! Damn!

Tapi dunno why, i don mind if she’s here. -kekeke- Kadang anehnya, gwa bisa lebih fokus jalanin things’ in my world. Cari ilham, okey! cari knowledge, and asah kemampuan, siap! everything laah. Gwa sering ngerasa, .. gwa mesti jadi successfull businessman .. for her!

Though maybe, .. she didn’t realise that. *sigh!* But that’s okay, .. I’ll be much more human to feel those feelings. Ramdhani sez, “..love didn’t have to be a part..” (bener gitu english-nya?) -ehehe- Meanings: Cinta engga mesti bersatu?

Maksud Ramdhani is that yg namanya soulmate (not soldmate .. -ehehe- garing ah!), engga mesti jadi bini . Tapi yang jadi binun, .. SOULMATE yang mana neeeh?! Dhan, kok saya jadi pusing. Ada Estie Diana, ada E-F-P, ada Indrie, ada Wulandari (Fui Jtngr), ada .. Amelia?! Bleuh, .. tulis terus aL! sampe seluruh dunia tau lo tuh PB banget! dasar dodoL!

Parahnya, Dhani sez, .. katanya soulmate engga mesti beda jenis! (waks!) .. jadi kalo jenisnya diragukan pun bisa jadi soulmate?! walah siah, uing pacaran jeung bencong atuw, Dhan! -hahaha-

Yeah dhan! .. perhaps i got da_points. Kaya elo dan Mr. G (baca: Mister Jie) yang di jakarta, perhaps you all guys are my soulmate. (kalo theory-nya Dhani bener) .. asal ulah dititah kawin jeung maraneh weh.. -wakakaka!-

That’s all comrades..

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